Every day I walk between two worlds. The land of the living & thinking of wanting to be on the other side & at peace. I get so tired of being attacked on facebookt & people do not believe me or even see it! How can they not see it? How can they see my pain? I am so tired of loosing friends over the most childish things. Like my long lost paranormal childhood experiences. I do not mind people disbelieving because even my in family does nit believe but to ruin a good friendship & leave since you do not believe? Geez, that sucks.
it us more then that.
There is a group of former & even current friends saying lies & rumors behind my back. I get so tired of it all. People say Facebook is better then you tube? I doubt it. I mean I sent a long post about being depressed to people I trusted & needed to gear from. What happens? Many of them simply ignore me, go about their lives without care & one good friend blocked me! It are be feel even more depressed.
Why I think things might be better if I was no longer here. If I allow myself to cross over to the other side where I would be with friends & family & people who gave a damn about me.i wonder if people would even notice I was gone? Did I even make a difference in their lives?
i simply no longer want to be on this Earthly plain.
i will not end my life but there is do much pain in me & I no longer know how o deal with it.